Chuck - 29.01.14 - 21 months old
Three things happened recently to give me a much needed power-up confidence boost. A very cool, young graphic designer bought my house and loved it as it was. No redecoration, just as is*. It meant that someone liked my style and ideas, it also meant that someone else fell in love with the house I've made my home for the last 6 years. This was a huge compliment to me. Then two extremely talented and sweet creative friends of mine made public proclamations of appreciation for some of my photography [the photograph you see above], of my little boy. And at the same time my husband sent me a text message to say I should become a portrait photographer. Bless.
It's a silly, perhaps childish moment for me, but it made me feel good. It made me feel as though I could actually do something well, aside from making pretty awesome babies**. And I'm not saying I'm going to become a photographer, or that I'm anywhere near good enough to become one but it did make me realise something fairly profound...
Sometimes, I feel inexplicably unhappy. Today made me realise that I am living my life below my limitations. I've done this all my life. Presumably because it's safe back there where you're not pushing yourself out into the world, ready for criticism and failure.
I suppose the biggest realisation was that this makes me feel inadequate and, therefore, unhappy. So I decided that I need to work on my happiness so that I can begin to realise my own potential. As such I've started to try and work on making some basic, but fundamental, changes by embarking on a few personal projects in the hope that I can make myself feel happier; become more productive; feel as fulfilled as I should feel and generally be a bit nicer.
Then stumbled upon, as is quite often the case in blog-world, the Practising Simplicity website where I found Jodi's The 52 Project. One portrait a week for a year of each of your children.
I can get on-board with this; Chuck makes me happy, looking at photos of him makes me happy and taking photographs also makes me happy - as does furthering my skills. So I've decided to join in 4 weeks late. It's really a way of forcing me to get my butt into gear, to take photos, to document his life and blog. Actually blog. Like I promised so many times that I would. As well as my own personal development. Win, win.
So here it is, my first - and pray it be not the last - contribution to The 52 Project.
* for now..
** ok, I've only made one so far but I'm sure the next will be just as cool as Chuck. It's genetic. Right?